Lately I’ve been pushing myself so far out of my comfort zone that I find myself doubting myself more and more. Over the past several months I’ve felt like I have gained great momentum, and while things have been uncomfortable (even in the physical sense), they have been endurable. I’m starting to see the results in the mirror as a result of being up to day 45 of 75 HARD. I’m pushing on at work and striving for bigger and better things. I’ve even written my first article on LinkedIn. All these things gave me more and more and more momentum to push on, to try harder, to move into areas I never really thought I would. However, I failed to account for one thing.
That one thing was criticism.
Typically, I haven’t been the greatest with criticism. From a professional standpoint I’ve probably taken the biggest leap in accepting criticism and learning from it. But, because I’ve been delivering results within my professional life, criticism is few and far between and I’ve been able to be humble enough to take valid points on board. The bit that I fall short on is personal criticism, the perfectionist in me wants to deliver all the time, I hate failure so much that it has crippled me in the past.
Recently I decided to start making videos for YouTube with the hope of building a presence there to support my other platforms. The videos, there’s only two of them at this point, they aren’t the greatest, but I was determined to make a start, so I did. Up until last week they had Zero views (that’s no lie), and while I’m not too worried about that, its probably a reflective sign of their quality. So once my eldest found out that I had videos, he thought he would check them out, after all, he watches way more of the YouTube than I do. He can also be very honest with his feedback and is yet to understand and apply tact. So, the feedback was crushing and made worse by my internal dialogue that uses criticism to run riot in my head.
This has taken some time for me to get my head right again, it’s never easy to take such a response from one of your own and be able to raise above it. So how did I go about getting my head right, the answer is simple.
I went back to doing the simple, routine tasks that I’ve become accustomed to. But I put more emphasis into the action. I Tuned myself into the mindset I had before by listening to the podcasts that resonated with me in the first place. I accepted that these things are going to happen and that I need to be more resilient, more steadfast and committed to what I’m doing 100%.
Once I gave myself a tune up, held myself accountable to my goals and reaffirmed why I’m doing what I’m doing; I got myself back on track and my head back in the game.
Shit is going to be hard sometimes, there will be setbacks, you will doubt yourself and you will lose momentum. We all do. But the true statement of your resolve is to get past those things and get back on track.
In the words of Seneca: “It does not matter what you bear, but how you bear it”.
‘til next time …..Cheers.