Over my life I have made many errors and lost my way. My upbringing wasn’t great (that’s a bit of an understatement), there are many times when I could have given up and stayed lost to the fate many thought would befall me. In fact, it would have been easier to accept that fate and give up. I know I’m not special or gifted in the fact that I chose to not accept my fate and push on, there are many inspiring people who have done just that and more. For the most part, I’ve never really been focused on what matters to me on a personal level. I’ve always been unwilling to really put myself out there, I’ve never thought I deserved more than I had and that I didn’t really have any true talents to fall back on. This sounds harsh I know, but it’s the truth and sometimes we need to remind ourselves of the truth by spilling it out to the world and dealing with whatever comes next.
Being able to move on and give yourself a second chance at life starts with accepting your past, good or bad, and owning that shit. You’ll never truly seek your true potential if you are constantly looking behind yourself, comparing who you are now to who you were then. I know because I’ve done it, and truth be told, I still do it on occasion now. It’s a hard thing to break free off and make no mistake, it isn’t easy. But, the more you do it, the further ahead you’ll go and eventually the gap between the present and the past will be so big you’ll never look back again.
I feel I’m on the verge of that now, it is getting harder and harder for me to see back to what I was, to see my failings and to draw any comparison. I’m now giving myself a second chance.
Over the last several months I’ve been trying to figure out what it is a want to do with my life. Not that I don’t like my life now, it isn’t without its challenges, but all in all I’m happy. But I know I want more; I want to pursue things and test my limits. The issue has always been in what way? Doing what? And the inevitable, how?
Since I was a kid, I’ve loved cars, my happiest memories that have survived my youth are of cars, including wandering car yards looking at cars. This was the building blocks for a passion that I carry to this day. In a perfect world I’d love to be able to review new cars and have my own car show where I get to drive the best cars, have a track where I can drive them on, have celebrity guests, etc. Sadly, that’s been done and I’m unsure I could do a better job without breaching some sort of copywrite!
A positive trend I’ve noticed is that everyone (even those who don’t love cars… what’s with that?? they don’t share a passion for your brand, they just look pretty sitting in your car, I could look pretty too with a bit of a scrub up!….end rant!) is hellbent on reviewing the new cars or just being brand ambassadors, which is fine as it leaves a gap for me to fill in. The second-hand market is a minefield of uncertain buyers, mixed machinery and poor understanding. Variance in car prices from one dealership to another, misunderstood capabilities, standard sedans labelled as ‘Luxury” (no crap, I saw that at a car yard this very morning) make it close to impossible to negotiate.
So, I’ve decided to start my own show that will be available on the YouTube and IGTV that will look at all these factors and provide guidance on what to buy and what to avoid. The show will be done in my usual, slightly odd and confusing sort of way. But hey, its my show and I’ll be odd if I want to. Additionally, the show will be an avenue to allow me to pursue my passion and do something I love. There is no aim to win popularity contests (or monetise the show, as my eldest son briefed me on last night), it is simply something fun, simple and honest.
So, there it is, my second chance. Will it fail, probably, but the point of the exercise isn’t to avoid failure, it’s to explore and grow. Failure is just another pathway to success, if you haven’t failed, then you haven’t tried. And if you don’t try, you’ve never given yourself a change, let alone a second one.
‘til next time…..Cheers!